you said you wish you were a ghost,
but you have no idea
how badly i wish i could feel alive again

you have a tendency to disappear
i’ll burn myself in hot coffee
just to feel again

im waiting for the day
where i wake up in the hospital
and realize that all of this was a hallucination

you took a part of me that i am still searching for
no matter how many times i think about it and put all the pieces together,
i can never get it right
i guess the only thing that i can conclude is that
you have left me very bitter and cold

the tears start to flow
when i remember how boring my life is
stuck in the same rut
waiting for death to take me away
from this horrid place

you say words are just words;
they don’t mean anything
“i was kidding”

those words can still
have the power
to take food away from me
to please you

although this time
it hit me like a train
with my body sewed to the tracks
i knew that this time

there was no escape

sareuh:

i get a longing cold sweat
of how much easier it would be
if you were sleeping silently
next to me

sareuh:

hold me closer

even when the tears flow

because the weather is warmer

but my heart is getting colder